Maharaj: All is His doing, no doubt. What is it to me, since I want
nothing? What can God give me, or take away from me? What is mine is mine and
was mine even when God was not. Of course, it is a very tiny little thing, a
speck — the sense ‘I am’, the fact of being. This is my own place, nobody gave
it to me. The earth is mine; what grows on it is God’s.
God or Ishwara is equated with a principle that exists
within the world, phenomena and affects the individual. As such, it appears
within the “I am” or self-aware consciousness, wakefulness. This “I am” was not
given, but appeared spontaneously when we were around the age of two. Prior to
this, there was no self-awareness, no God, no world etc.
M: Without you is there a
world? You know all about the world, but about yourself you know nothing. You
yourself are the tools of your work, you have no other tools. Why don’t you
take care of the tools before you think of the work?
Since the world depends on our self of being, “I am” for its
existence, the advice is given to examine and understand one’s own self first.
The “I am” here is referred to as the instrument used to perform any work.
Understanding the instrument is necessary before attempting to carry out any
work. How is this done? By taking the time to notice it, live with it, abide in
it, and understand it completely. By understanding it and living with it,
ultimately it is seen through as not our true identity. This is an initial step from the object-identified state.
M: Within the prison of your
world appears a man who tells you that the world of painful contradictions,
which you have created, is neither continuous nor permanent and is based on a misapprehension.
He pleads with you to get out of it, by the same way by which you got into it.
You got into it by forgetting what you are and you will get out of it by
knowing yourself as you are.
M: The gnani
is
the supreme and also the witness. He is both being and awareness. In relation
to consciousness he is awareness. In relation to the universe he is pure being.
The Jnani or Self-realized state is always prior to any
manifestation and stands as the primary principle. From the point of view of
the world, that state is consciousness or “I am”. From the point of view of consciousness,
wakefulness or “I am”, that state is the Absolute or all-inclusive awareness.